you said i was too much
then told me i’m too little 
you always made me feel caught 
somewhere in the middle 

one day i spoke too quiet 
but then i laughed too loud
oh what a perfect breeding ground
for deeply rooted doubts 

your harshness made me sad 
but crying made you mad 
so i quit being emotional
to not make you feel uncomfortable

pulled from the left far to the right
i had to leave to stop this fight
and when i left, i left my right
to live the way that i would like 

i knew i wasn’t what you wanted
cause you were clearly disappointed 
i knew i wasn’t what you needed
it was easy for me to see that

i had to change my words, my thoughts 
the way i looked, the way i walked
the way i breathed, the way i was 
when all i asked from you was love 

so i adapted, you applauded
now you got what you had wanted
that’s when my world became distorted 
and i thought that’s what “to be loved” meant 

throughout the years i’ve tried to put
the others first the best i could
so grateful for the tiny crumbs 
of seeing them happy while i was numb 

i’d like to see life as a gift
but only ever learned to give

but i wonder 

what if life is what’s mine to take?
the only thing that is at stake? 
this can’t be real, it must be fake 
is this a dream? no, i’m awake! 

oh, god, that means, i can be me! 
redeemed from living in between
this is what it feels like
to finally be free 

pulled from the left far to the right
i had to leave so i could find 
my way back home into the light
where there’s no wrong 
and there’s no right